I cannot say that I go through life confident about my hopes and dreams and plans. I wish I could say that I never ever doubt God. I can't though. It is hard to keep that positive attitude going strong when things don't go the way we want or expect. We know that nothing happens by chance, yet when something disappointing happens to us we doubt that God has our best interest at heart.
Abraham fell face down; he laughed and said to himself, "Will a son be born to a man a hundred years old? Will Sarah bear a child at the age of ninety?" 18And Abraham said to God, "If only Ishmael might live under your blessing!" 19Then God said, "Yes, but your wife Sarah will bear you a son and you will call him Isaac ... ~Genesis 17:17-19
At least I am in good company. The crazy thing about this passage is that Abraham is with God. God is actually telling Abraham that He will give him a son, and Abraham is doubting him to his face. Now, I don't feel so bad. Personally, my mind cannot understand how Abraham can have any doubts about God's power. He doubts so much that he ask God to bless Ishmael, in my opinion, so that just in case he does not have a son with Sarah at least Ishmael will be within the covenent. What's funny is that as you read the rest, God has to reiterate that He will give Sarah a son.
I know that God has had to show me things more than once before I got the picture. How many times has he had to reiterate things to you? Honestly, it is too many to count for myself. However, it is wonderful to know that as long as I keep loving Him (and even when I don't), God will not give up on me.