Do not wear yourself out to get rich; have the wisdom to show restraint. ~Proverbs 23:4
Proverbs 23 has some wonderful nuggets and some verses that make me want to chuckle. I have a weird sense of humor so that is not odd. Anyway, I recommend you take a read of that one.
I have this overwhelming desire inside of me to be something more than average. Actually, average was not even on my radar. As a kid, I wanted to go to school, find a good job, and work until I retire. At some point, and I am not sure when, I wanted more. As I am trying to get a handle on how to better serve God, I am learning that this need I have to do more is most likely stemming from the fact that I am not on the path God chose for me. I am not doing what he intended with my gift; therefore, I have all this energy that is all over the place. Anyone who knows me well, can tell you that I have 101 things going on.
I understand now that I was wearing myself out to get rich. I equated wealth (like MTV Cribs wealth or movie star wealth) with success and that in turn would fill this need I have to do more than average. I did not have the wisdom to show restraint, which is why I plowed ahead without really thinking things through and made all the mistakes a novice entrepreneur makes and then some. Those consequences are now my own (and by extension my family’s) to deal with.
I still have an entrepreneurial spirit that drives to do more, but I am staying unmoved until I can figure out what God wants out of me. I know that my words can be used to spread His. It is not about getting rich anymore but about getting it right.